It's okay dealing with own mind about things you wanted and things you needed. But the further I deal with, the hardest I decide to and it's like..world war session III. The situation's approximately like these conversations: "It would be good if I'd be like that. I want that, seriously!" the other side of my mind said, "Geez! Be realistic of your self-capability!", the other side also wisely said, "Don't rely with your present capability. It can be shaped only if you never stop trying."

All the things has its good and bad. Risks are risks. Everything has that. Fail now but, later, it may never be. But, what about if the both choices have a perfectly the same good and bad? This theory is just theory. These dillemmas are waiting to decide. In the end, there's a time these stuffs will be passed by and i'll cheer for that 'cause there's a rainbow after the storm. Wish me luck! Bismillah!

           Ibarat pake threadmill, saya berlari tetapi hanya di satu tempat aja, tanpa ada perpindahan. Sudah lama membenak, meronta. "Cukup! Cukup! Ini gak boleh kejadian untuk ke lubang yang sama." Fix banget kuliah jangan sampai kejadian lagi. That's why I wanna go out far far awaaay! And when I back, I should not only bring back my packages, title embedded on my name, but also tons of precious moments and life-lessons. 

For all the things I wanna say.  For all the things I couldn't say. For all the things I never have said.

Is there any time for me to say?
...Wait? Uh, I've no idea how longer I could stay and you've no idea how hard I resist to.
Just..wish you read and understand.