"Here or there, tomorrow or today, everywhere and everysecond you're living your life, has own consequences. There's only 1 decision you've to decide but only Him can direct the way you've to take and live life as it be. I do believe it's always be a good one. Never be wrong. Never. God knows what you need, human just do eveything as best as they can to let God gives His best answers to them."

Just Once. No More.

"For all those we i felt like a mistake, those times when love's what you i hate." Marchin' On - Coldplay

Those times. 
At that time, I remember that what I feel is not like what I say, but the reverse. When I was happy, I denied. Actually, I acted like I don't care. Especially, when there were butterflies flyin' in my tummy. 

At that time, I also thought like "Omg, I'm confused. What kind of these things are supposed to? Is it refer to me? Me?!" Everytime I felt like that way, I just keep it by my own. Over again and over again. Till' the last word he say to me. 

All of the sudden, yesterday, I was slapped by one of my pal's story. Exactly the same story like he did yesterday to me. Then, I realised. I know now I'm that "blind". Am I too late to apologize? May he already forget those things I did. Maybe not. But like there's a hole of guilty feeling in this mind and it's hard to cover. Really. You've no idea how it feels that you already treat someone bad and have no time to say apologize. Because everything seems too late. The fact, it really is.

It feels like nothing really matters anymore

When you're gone, I can't breathe

And I know you never meant to make me feel this way

This can't be happening

Now I see, now I see.

Eveybody Hurts - Avril Lavigne

Thus, I grab something that I should be honest to myself and also care about my conscience. I feel blessed that I still wake up and able to find out what's my mistake. Not to mention I won't make it for the second times.

 Someday when I meet that person, I just want to say..."I'm sorry". Yup, someday, I will do.