It's okay dealing with own mind about things you wanted and things you needed. But the further I deal with, the hardest I decide to and it's like..world war session III. The situation's approximately like these conversations: "It would be good if I'd be like that. I want that, seriously!" the other side of my mind said, "Geez! Be realistic of your self-capability!", the other side also wisely said, "Don't rely with your present capability. It can be shaped only if you never stop trying."

All the things has its good and bad. Risks are risks. Everything has that. Fail now but, later, it may never be. But, what about if the both choices have a perfectly the same good and bad? This theory is just theory. These dillemmas are waiting to decide. In the end, there's a time these stuffs will be passed by and i'll cheer for that 'cause there's a rainbow after the storm. Wish me luck! Bismillah!

"Here or there, tomorrow or today, everywhere and everysecond you're living your life, has own consequences. There's only 1 decision you've to decide but only Him can direct the way you've to take and live life as it be. I do believe it's always be a good one. Never be wrong. Never. God knows what you need, human just do eveything as best as they can to let God gives His best answers to them."

Called; Faith

Just remember this whenever you feel bad.. and tada! It successfully makes you feel better and get better. It charges you some energies to hold on again. Called; faith. :-)